Sunday Bloody Sunday

just something i threw together

Only In My Dreams

I've been running
without a stop in sight
the road has vanished
in this endless dark of night

I had wanted
someone desperately for years
I've long accepted
that I would never find it here

I lost my mind
and close my eyes 'cause
it's only in my dreams
I can see angels
only in my dreams
life is a miracle

I can't be seeing your face
touching your hand
'cause it seems
it's only in my dreams

You were searching
looking through the broken glass
when I found you
you had thought our time had passed

I'm astounded that you let me hold you back
when even after, you let me take you in

I can't be seeing your face
Touching your hand
'cause it seems
it's only in my dreams

Only In My Dreams by Bob Hartry

Neon, Kentucky

I just got back from my service trip over Spring Break in Neon, Kentucky...part of the Appalachian region. What an amazing experience. But to be honest, also extremely saddening. I have never seen such beauty, and such poverty all in one area. How some people could be so ignorant of the extreme poverty that is in our own country, it just baffles me. The people there are so gracious, so willing to improve their lives, but it is impossible for them to. I wish I could have done more than dig a few holes to build a wall to prevent another mudslide. I wish I could put a booming business right in the town and save their economy, but I can't. It's hard to come back here though, where people can be so selfish and ignorant to the injustices that are taking place in our own country. It's not fair at all, and it's so frustrating to deal with these people. These people who refuse to see past their own suburb.
I guess, that's life though, and all I can do is keep trying to make them open their eyes.

happy songs

You're mixing me up now
You're pulling my teeth out
You're wishing my arguments away
I'll follow directions
I'll stick to your reasons
This isn't the season to go running away
-The Season by Quietdrive

Hey up town girl
Can you hear this down town song?
Wrote a couple of words to tell you
Right here is where you belong
I bet you walk the streets
Wondering who you’re thinking of
Hope you’re looking for someone to hold
And not at all in love
And I wonder if you can relate
To nights upon my pillow case
Eyes wide open middle of the night
You’re the last thing on my mind
Only the lonely know
Only the lonely know
Only the lonely know
What nights like these do to me, yeah
I keep asking myself
If our hands were meant to be
I know this town is busy,
But I live on Public Street
We can get out of here
If only for just tonight
Ride like some Rollin stone
That’s forced to waste your life
And I wonder if you can relate
To nights upon my pillow case
Eyes wide open middle of the night
You’re the last thing on my mind
When I’m under (when I’m under)
Is it me you’re thinking of?
With this light (get on your knees)
I pray you’re not at all in love
With someone else (with someone new)
With something other than me and you
Just wanna be where you are (Just where you are)
If ever you’re lonely I won’t be far
Downtown Song by Anberlin

And I'll do anythin' you ever dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothin' that fall
Oh, May
Put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
Oh, May
Do you wanna get married Or run away?
Slide by Goo Goo Dolls

Tonight, I will take my cross
Tonight, I will count this cost
Tonight, I will realize to take hold of this very moment
In this time, you draw me by these words You’ve spoken
I feel inside, this never-ending hope
I’ve placed all that I trust in knowing one day I will see You
The only thing worth holding onto is holding onto me
Tonight by Jeremy Camp

Sing this to me?

Walk towards me
I want to hear
The heavens singing over you
When you breathe
And look at me
I want to be captured by you

Gaze into my eyes
And let me know you’d fight
Thousands, for my love
Slip your hand in mine
Ask me to dance with you tonight
Just ask me for my love

I want to hide
What’s deep in my eyes
I’m scared to be known by you
But when I turn my head
And see you there
I want to be pursued

Gaze into my eyes
And let me know you’d fight
Thousands, for my love
Slip your hand in mine
Ask me to dance with you tonight
Just ask me for my love

A dream I won’t wake from
A story that will never end
The ground your feet walk on
Let me be there, let me be there

Gaze into my eyes
Let me know you’d fight
Thousands, for my love
Slip your hand in mine
Ask me to dance with you tonight
Just ask me for my love

Gaze into my eyes
Let me know you’d fight
Thousands, for my love
Slip your hand in mine
Ask me to dance with you tonight
Ask me for my love

Loving your neighbor...

2 weeks from today I will be in Neon, Kentucky. 12 hours away. Experiencing a different culture and a different way of living. Yesterday we had a meeting with everyone going on the different immersion trips and a speaker from one of the sites came to tell us of his life growing up, and what we should expect to see when we go. At the end of his talk he spoke of a love that these people have for us. We haven't even arrived, and they love us so dearly.
I can not help but remember the bible passage he read concerning this love. From 1John 4, but specifically John 4:19. "We love, because He first loved us."

He first loved me.
He still loves me.


I've been up for days,
Trying to find a way to write this confession down
Seems every line I writes amiss,
At least this I'll admit
For what I've done, I am not proud
But there's no need to pretend, no need for innocence
I've got to be honest now

My verdict has come in,
It says I'm guilty for my sins this time.
I thought I could escape,
But then I finally felt the weight,
Of my crimes.
This is passion, it's not love,
Infatuation never ends up right.
At least I won't be alone tonight.
'Cuz I don't want to be alone tonight.

The prosecution rests,
With convincing evidence.
It seems I've been deceived.
So now I stand alone and wait for the first stone,
To be cast upon me.

My verdict has come in,
It says I'm guilty for my sins this time.
I thought I could escape,
But then I finally felt the weight of my crimes.
This is passion, it's not love,
Infatuation never ends up right.
At least I won't be alone tonight.
'Cuz I don't want to be alone tonight.
If convicted, I will surely do my time.

At least I won't be alone tonight.
'Cuz I don't want to be alone tonight.

Slide

With Slide by the Goo Goo Dolls playing in the background, she feels beautiful. A smile stretches her lips, and she can't help but feel her heart pound and pound. Each second giving out more happiness to the next. He lives with all her faults, and kisses her cheek lightly whenever she doubts anything about herself. He squeezes her hand making her heart pound anymore. A giggle escapes her mouth, and red races to her face, but then he flashes that grin. That grin that could give world peace a run for it's money if he let it.
The way he sings into her ear makes her want to cry. The way he dreams so big for the both of them. The way anything is possible in his arms. Those strong arms, that never seemed important all those times before. He slides right up next to her like he was meant to for all of his life. He doesn't judge, he doesn't get mad, he doesn't lie. By standing there, with his arms wrapped around her those scars on her own arms are erased. That smile stretches her mouth again, and she never thought it'd be like this again, but here he was.
It's an ecstasy between them, it's a blindness, it's a waiting and a patience for something greater than they ever imagined. He's erasing her sins and doesn't care how she used to deal, but living alone on how she feels. He tells her he'll wait forever, he tells her she's beautiful, and it's only good to be alive when being with her.
All you can taste is this moment, all you can breathe in is every day coming and going, there's no need in missing anyone tonight. He tells her this, and she knows it's right.

Slide comes on again, and the smile hits her like a ton of bricks. She opens her eyes and he's right there and she slides right on next to him, wanting to breathe, taste, feel this moment forever, and the pains of every day life drift away in the blink of an eye.